perhaps i think tis will be the longest post other than last time
most people most forget it...
but nvm hope it's easy reading for u guys =)
but b4 i start... i need to say something....
wat i wrote might be offensive...
but if i dont blog i wont feel good...
my tears are about to come out....
it's hard to keep it in heart...
i dont wish to talk to anyone about it...
becoz 1 onli wish to talk to 1 person onli...
and i think she dont have the time to spend wif me...

i was gaming till around 1130 when my brothers MK and Johnny call me
they very piss off wif some things then wanted to ask me out chat
i quited my game... although it'm impt... but brothers are more impt...

upon reaching realise that it's gers' matter
Johnny and his stead were playing daytona...
then becoz of 1 stupid action...
she get piss off....
somemore if she's the one doin it.. she laugh and laugh..
when pp do that... then give attitude...
wth man... u that big mey?
somemore play hard to catch...
SOMETHING that i HATED.... kaoz...
i can tell u guys can nv tell what the gers wanted...
i can see that Johnny loves her alot...
yet she giv tis attitude...
that's total crap...
that's why i will nv fall for you...
although some pp used to said we are close...
enough to be JUST normal frens...
nothing much... not to mention best fren...

he went off to find her lor...
left me and MK.....
we went to the playground at 450 there chit chat....
he start talkin about gers matter...
then i realise that how lonely he is...
he's short.... and the ger he loved once said to him...
"i mind my bf's height."
that condenm him to like dunno where le...
he start to tell me his story....
it's a long story... but i will cut short..
during the sec sch days...
watever he fork out... watever he do...
no matter how good he perform...
he can nv get the heart of his beloved one...
due to one thing... 'height'

we brothers saw his effort in everything towards her...
yet she still went steady wif another guy....
i can tell that wat MK give out is way too much and extreme...
i doubt her current stead will be able to do so....
he always wanted to find someone to talk to... a ger...
yet all of them treat it so lightly...
some even ignore...
i can understand his feeling...
coz i have been through the feelings b4....

after talkin about his story.. he said to me:
"then u ley?
how's u and her le?
i thought everything is smooth for u and her,
y today there is this thing happening?
i was extremely shocked and angry for u."
i dont noe how to reply...

wat he said actually hit me very hard in my mind...
and heart....
when i saw that incident i oso very shocked...
i can believe my eyes oso...
you might feel nth...
just comin to sch see teachers onli...

but what u told me... is all trash...
' tired... not coming'
all trash...
tried to meet u so hard to come sch..
keep denying me...
i dont understand y....

somemore in sch.. a few pp asked me y u nv come...
i told them u were tired... having paper in the afternoon perhaps need to study...
in the end... u came...
can u imagine how i feeling?
worse till... u nv tell me u changed ur mind...
sigh....

i totally moodless for the day...
which results in y im so piss wif everything for the day...
feel like crying but cant in public...
crying alone is terrible...
so vent all my emotionals by gaming...
and blasting techno in my room for the whole afternoon till late evening

i don't noe y i still cant get over u...
for all the things i done...
although it seems like wat a normal fren will do...
or a brother in Christ will do...
but to me... i feel that i had already cross the border of it...
i believe that u can feel it too........
or it's simpily stupid and foolish to go for such extend?
wat i wan is attention from u....
stand out from all ur guys fren...
abit too demanding.....
and very buay hiao bye...

but judging from the treatment of me towards u...
i think u get my message...
and if not... i want to tell u now...
" I WAN TO WOO U BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! "
abit impossible.....
coz u hav lost faith in BGR in ur previous relationship...
but im different from him...
maybe better... or worser.........
wat i wan is... more attention from u...

actually not onli me and some of my brothers went through similiar cases...
some of out other frens too... be it ger or guy.....
ger dont care about the guy's feeling.....
taking guys advantage and in the end take nothing had happened...
i cant believe that some of my female frens are doing it!
kaoz............................................................................................................................
kaoz............................................................................................................................
not the fren i want.... and the ger i want to make frens wif....

last word:
" if guys give the best they can give to the ger that they like.
but when they get nth in return...
then too bad... it's all fated "


='( sob sob

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10:03 AM

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today im DAMN piss...
piss off wif so many things...

first of all morning actually goin back sec sch for teachers day...
then give me heavy downpour wor...
wtf.... in the end not alot pp goin back compared to last yr....
manage to see all the teachers that we wanted to see....
at the same time invited them over to our bbq next tue....
then 1 of our brother farking late... say meet at 9
call him hp nv on...
then later he called me say raining ley
omg... then how me kenenth and mk still can come even though it's rainin?
crap...
damn piss wif his attitude... always late...

secondly... after that went home play com....
then the internet connection is damn laggy....
nv experience b4...
maple oso cannot... dota oso cannot....
how u wan me to do??!?!!?!?!?1

unscrew everything................

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7:10 AM

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crap man today...
first time went for cheerleading de training..
y i want to join?
coz my fren open this IG...
then thye not enough guys...
she wan me join... so... that's how i got in..

actually got jio someone wif me de...
but then she bastard me... and die lor...
i alone in the cheerleading.....
crap man today...
trainin damn tough....
but can handle...
gonna carry gers around...
shit man....
although it might seems good...
but the feelin of the one carrying not good...
sian....

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7:57 AM

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woke up tis mornin to meet Celine
gave her present then at the same time song her to TP...
i bo liao ma.. so accompany her lor...
reach there her frens were late so chat till about 10 30 go le..

then my day become sucky from this point of time..
dad bought a printer for dunno wat reason...
say wan photocopy and scan things...
somemore he already bank goin no money le still buy this and that...
buy le nvm...
my idiot bro sec 2 still inmature...
i recall that during my sec 2 time....
alot of people and frens that about the same age if many many time more mature lor...
kaoz...
read instruction manual read abit...
then installing of the printer do wrong step result in the printer got error
i thought is printer spoil then took it back to challenger
(btw my dad bought it at challenger)
then there the printer is able to work....
sunday bring once then today bring....
then my bro ytd nite kana scolded for nth...
serve him rite....

the person told me might be during the installation for problem...
ask me reinstall... which my bro oso did ...
and wth i reinstall the correct way everything turn out smooth..
except my bro....
i dont understand y my bro so troublesome de...
also givin me trouble and all the shit...
kaoz...

scold le oso no use he wont listen de....
sad sia.....
i dunno wat to say

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9:57 AM

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all the while whenever i buy bday present
i wont make a big deal out of it...
decorate it.... write words... and blah blah blah...

BUT!!!
for her bday i dunno y i did so many things...
when i look back...
i wont usually do so much things for a person's present...
maybe she plays a huge part of my life?
i dunno....

remembered that my bday present she bought a tee
then she and dajie sew words on it...
see how they prepare my present... i wanted to do then same...
too bad dajie de bday past le..

some of u might be curious wat i bought..
but cannot tell now as i haven gave her yet....
muhaha...

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11:31 PM

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today a good day for me...
having AGM in RP.
AGM stands for annual general meeting....
it about the steping down of the last yr's student union president
and passin it to tis yr's one....

we invited student union from all polys plus colleage east..
as well as other presidents and vice presidents of other clubs in RP...
about 100 plus pp came....
and i was the multimedia guy..
in short i was the one changing the slides..
damn stress...
scare too fast or too slow....
but in the end manage to pull of...

well.. everything went very smoothly and well....
we were damn happy about it...
we actually took alot of photos but haven take yet..
will post it asap...

btw my team photo out le...

crap man that's after match and my hair so messy..
well that's the full force....
whereas other schools about 10 players...
sux rite?
anyway it over...

talking about bball....
im in RP's under 20 guys
playing he ISIBL competition..
it's about all the international school competition
includes all the international schools in S'pore
meaning Japanese school.. United World Colleage..
Australian school... and blah blah blah....
i think it's due to my performance for inter sch...

gtg le tired...
anyawy Celine's bday comin le still haven buy anything yet..
wat to buy?

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1:37 PM

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last match today...
still lost
but points quite close...
sigh... teammates dont listen to me....
as them dun foul they still foul...
then say nvm if dun foul the they score le..

played quite sucky today...
due to someone tua me..
ask her accompany me go cheerleading de practice...
called her at 3 pm say meet her when i reach sch...
reach sch le she still haven ok...
i called her then she say 'haven finish'
how wont i noe she haven finish wat? 6P ar?
then last min noe she celebrating their last day wif her class
from 430 call her she say 'comin le comin le'
till 455 i called again she tell me ' heyi 5 then can come down'
fark man..

my match 530 starts i 5 need to go le
still tell me 5pm come down...
wth...
knn meet u need so mafan de ar?

my bday oso... at pasir ris de sakura
i nv kp onli...
told everyone meet 7pm....
in the end? push another 30 mins for late comers..
then u tell me taking cab already at pasir ris drive dunno wat...
need to take so long to reach ar?
in the end 820 then come...
wtf.. ur bday or my bday?
y must keep me waiting?

kaoz...
other's bday oso... they are late ley...
come on man.....
my bday others late... other's bday others oso late....
see la how to be punctual like that..
i late one time kpkb....
others late so many times i nv say anything

then fine lor...
i told u if u nv come for the practice wif me then i wont go chalet le
i said alot of times le u say ok ok... my other brothers oso heard it
then now u tua me i tell others i not goin
then say wat make deal y must use chalet...
come on man...

since u noe i use chalet as a deal u jolly well keep to the deal la....
make me so piss of today...

played so sucky....
totally no mood.....
but still the top scorer...
sian...

dun wan to talk anymore le....

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12:16 PM

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tis match was the suckiest match ever....
2 of my main players foul out...
end up me playin 3 positions..
center... forward.. and guard...
siao rite?
no need to say.. we lost again..
to ISC... they lost all oso... but win us..
damn sickening...

alot pp put high hopes on us that we can win..
so that we can at least fight for top 4...
but now... haiz... chances are we are out of the game...
even though im the top scorer...
even though im the player of the week..
even though im the mvp player of my school...
even though i played for the whole match without rest...
eben though i play till end of every match leg cramp and body aches
wat's the use?
we still lost... sian...

now i realise that y some matches i din score well...
it's because i din get a chance to score...
sigh...

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8:58 AM

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im damn happy about tis things... read it..

"Player of the week (14 Aug 2006)
Cai Song De from STA is named Player of the Week for week 1 after leading his team to stage a underdog defeat against SHL. Song De posted 15 points in that game and was distinctively the leader in the STA team."

it was in the intra sch website..
but too bad im the vice captain... not the captain...
haha...
damn happy... but my scoring was pull down from 3rd to 8th...
sad sia... other schs got good players...
my sch have too..
but not good enough compared to others...

sad...
but still very happy...
having another match today against ISC...
hope we can win...

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11:10 PM

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the 3rd match we were against SIT... the strongest of all the schools...
however not many of their players turn up..
perhaps on that day they have a more impt match...
so they decided not to paly for the intra...

as expected.. we lost.. 30 to 60...
same as the previous match...
play quite bad... coz captain nv come then not enough players to play some positions...
then i have to play 2 positions... sian rite?

sigh....
dunno y so moody nowadays....
tired of trainins and matches....

and btw my desktop is ok le...
finally after so many yrs... about 1 - 2 years le... haha....
gonna game as much as possible...

but first... i need a job for my holidays....
cant possibily spending them gaming...
somemore i need money.. sigh

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11:57 AM

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2nd match against SEG, school of engineering..
kana trash like hell.. 60 - 30..
we 30 lor... sian...
again im the top scorer.. scoring 11 points..
but in the competition i got injured quite bad..
right thigh got knee - ed twice and cant sprint
got knock down when im in the air and injured my knee n elbow..
how to play like that?

sian sia...
need to rest for quite sometime...
sigh...

stupid injuries..

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5:39 PM

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ytd we had victory over SHL for intra sch competition...
it was highly unexpected... as we have onli 3 experienced players
and SHL has almost half..
but luck wazen on their side...
their shooting percentage of whole team is very low...
and we take serious is every shot...
eventually we manage to hold and pull the score...
gettin 36 - 28.. won by a margin of 8 points...

alot pp oso dun expect we to win..
as SHL have many good players...
7 mins away from match end..
i suddenly feel that my leg are goin to cramp..
and i mean both legs...
i cant chiong or put too much stress on my leg..
if not i will be out of the game and my team will be in deep trouble...

fortunately for me...
i was the top scorer for my team.. scored 15..
quite well for my first match...
could have score more but forget it...
past is past...

other then that i saw RP's sports complex...
it's damn big and nice...
i think i will take some photos this fri coz got match against SEG..
again im expected that we will lose... but hope that we can win =)

cheerz

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7:44 PM

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