I'm happy with the fact that i'm meeting datelines after datelines, which means i'm finish more and more things. It feel good, but i'm compromising a lot of other things.

I think i'm gonna skipped napfa tomorrow, simply because i'm not prepared for it. For my life i've been getting either gold or sliver for napfa, and this time i think i will get bronze , or in worse case fail. I decided to take it after i graduate so that i have more time to train.

Life so sucky without friends, i realise i have church mates, class mates, council mates, work mates, and a lot more. But no true friends, suck. I'm not trying to act emo or whatsoever, but if people were in my shoes, they will understand.

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7:54 PM

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Back from Halloween party organized by STA. The party rawks man, and is super duper cool. DJ spinning musics for 2 hours plus, people dancing non stop. I wasn't dress up as much as others, was just wearing a wizard hat walking around taking pictures, again. Really enjoyed myself a lot at the party, with all the cool students in RP.

After the party me and 9 other friends went to Jalan Kayu eat. It's has been so long since i went there, and i remember the last time i went was with my brothers, and we cycled there.

Tomorrow gonna gymed and i think i needa sleep. God bless all. nite!

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9:36 AM

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I'm back from the event, but is really disappointed in the weather. The day starts with a hot and sunny day. Upon reaching the venue, everyone was like complaining the weather for being so hot. But around 330pm, the skies start to ture dark, drizzling came and about 5 mins of drizzling, heavy downpour came. Everything was delayed, everything has to put on hold, everyone's mood was damped. I'm super disappointed, super super disppointed. If the day starts with a rainy day, i think it's still alright. But why must it come when everyone is having fun?


Then event was a success and turnout is good. The rain causes 2 major performances to be cancelled. One being wind symphony and cheerleading. I'm very sad for cheerleading. Being a advisor for the team, i'm very helpless at that point of time. I can't really do much for them, and see their disappointment in their faces. It turns me off.

Skipped school due to tireness and disappointment. GG

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6:13 AM

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Today is the day for Student Council, a major school event at Youth Park. And also, it marks the end of my busy schedule in school, although are are more to come. Tonnes of designing and planning, tonnes of sleepless night and excessive use of body resources, all ended today.

Hope the event will be a success, God bless the event and my fellow EXCO members.

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7:25 PM

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Student Council organize a 2 day 1 night leadership camp, from Friday till Saturday. The planning was quite rush, and a lot was last minute thing. The schedule was changed don't know thousands of times, but fortunately during the camp everything went quite ok even though sometimes there are some problems.

Howevere, the turnout was not the expected amount of people, and we expected about 100 people. Hence, the meals we ordered could not be finish, and most of the time we, the Council members have to clear. There is 2 guys and me to clear most of the food, but seriously i feel that i've fat after eating so much but i did not participate much in the camp.

Mainly because i still have a lot of things to be done, and one of them will determine whether will i retain another year or not, so i have no choice to rush it. As usual, i took photographs for the whole camp, but i feel that the camp was quite bored, until the very last hour whereby we give them own time own target. A bunch of SIT(school of Info Tech) people decided to play some games and bring up the spirit. That's the only time that i feel the joy, and find that we as Student Council did not plan very well.

We still have to learn a lot more, and we do make mistakes. I hope that i will learn from all these mistakes and be a better leader, and a better person.

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10:02 AM

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i decided to take sometime to blog and rant at, because i simply have a lot to say.

Going back cell feels good. It's totally different from reading bible at home, because i get to read and reflect with all the members. Especially worship, it's better to worship and sing songs together. Seriously, everything is better when doing it together as a cell group. I remembered that last time during my busy FYP, i only manage to do all these things alone at home. It's so bored la, but nevertheless i'm back to church, and i'm still the same white.

School is boring, with 2 days of unofficial holiday, which is Wednesday and Friday. Usually on Wednesday, i will go alone to the gym, and after which i will do what i want. However, i will end up going back to school to for Student Council stuffs. I'm given some workload to do, and i deadline is 2nd week of next month. Tons of posters and things to be done, hope i can really cope. Napfa is the end of this month, yet i can only do a single pull up. I don't know why i still can't do more than 3, perhaps i don't understand and know how to do and use the correct muscles.

Im my busy schedule, i will maple whenever i have time. I feel that i'm partially addicted to it, again. I'm back to my old guild because the leader went to Taiwen for attachment and close down. With his return, he reopened the guild and invited me back, which makes me feel even tempt to stay in maple. Guild members are sort of in-game friends, so that you will not feel lonely when mapling.

Sheryl describe me as independent, because i always do things on my own. But in actual fact, i do not want to depend on others. I go train basketball on my own, went gym on my own, go night jogging on my own, and many more. If i were to go with someone, i will be dependent on him or her. Say if 1 night he or she last time decide not to go jog, does it mean that i will also not go? I don't want the "oh he/she not going, i also not going" kind of mindset.

Like what i've blogged last time whereby i chiong all the work alone, the guy with me have the intention to skip. Even when the 2 girls skipped, i told myself that i must finish the work no matter what. I don't know avoid problem, but no matter where you go, the problem is still there. People will have the impression of you that 'oh, you met a obstacle and pon school'. I don't like to make people think of me as this kind of person.

I've seen or heard somewhere about some quote which is something like this: "do not have people adding colours to your life. Instead, you should add colours to their life." It's something like you yourself make their life happening and memorable, not them making yours. This quote makes me a giving person. Indeed i've become one, but i did not receive any. Try so hard yet nothing in return. I hate it.

LIFE SUCKS!

Labels: I'm a nobody's child

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9:59 AM

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this was taken 1 day after i was injured, initially was no pain but a lot of blood, but when i woke up next morning, it becomes more pain. sianz

I'm busy this month through till next month, with a lot of deadlines coming up. Maple rox

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2:11 AM

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Went out with Sheryl because she was moody and wanted to go destress. So we went to Esplanade and Suntec's Sky Garden. Finally i know where the so called 'Esplanade rooftop' which i saw in other's friendster picture. It's actually Esplanade Mall's rooftop, not Esplanade's rooftop. Esplanade rooftop are all spikes, lol.

Esplanade library is cool, we went there to rest, and there is a cafe for young talents or talents who are waiting to be spotted to perform. I feel that this platform is a good way to engage youths in showcasing their singing talent. There are instruments there from keyboard, drums, guitars, and many more. The library is rather small, and all the books there were of performing arts such as music, instrumental stuffs, which i catch no balls when reading it.

And i finally know where is DXO(for those who don't know what's DXO, it's actually a club). Rather small i feel, because i did not enter as Sheryl wasn't the age to enter. Lol

Gtg, maple time. =D

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9:18 AM

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This breakdance clip inspires me to do more than just normal hiphop dance
A very wellknown Breakdance crew from South Korea, Enjoy

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1:38 AM

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Went to gym today to prepare for my napfa, and after that meet Winnie for lunch at Bugis after her school (she was my classmate in primary 1 and 2). Food junction food are sure expensive, and a bowl of minced meal noodles cost $3.80, and i order more noodles which is 50cents, zzzz.

After that went to Plaza Singapoer watch Resident Evil. It's a nice show, a show with lots of triller and horror to some people, but overall the action parts are very nice and well made, especially the female lead, which i think is super cool. =D

Went home and did a poster, and i hate doing it when i ask for something but i din get it, piss....

*p.s I just realise that Winnie remember me because she was the monitress and she always write my name on the whiteboard for being noisy or whatsoever, LOL!

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8:51 AM

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This is a real random post, of what i observed for the past few days. I've noticed that couples are loving, and indeed they are. I feel happy that they found their ideal partner.

BUT!!!! sometimes, i think that they are really unmature, or i should say they have low EQ. They do not know how to control emotionals, and to let out at the correct time. They would let emotions to control them, which i think is very bad.

Being in a relationship is a process of building your EQ, not to let your emotionals affect you work, your training, and your daily life. I've not yet attain that 'high' level of EQ, but i tell myself no matter what, i must not let my emotionals control me, no matter what, and i'm still learning.

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8:40 AM

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I don't have the mood and time to blog for the past few days. A lot of good and bad things happened.

The Council lost a laptop that was loaned by a staff for revantage registration, and we got in deep shit. Don't know who stole it, but the security does not even take this matter seriously. Hope it's a inside job and we can sack him or her. If he/she is captured on the camera but can't see the face, we will have to pay half of the price, which i think i will quit after that together with another guy, which is the head of social department that plans all the events for students in RP.

Played a friendly match against the staffs in RP, and my team sucks with so much solo-ers. Quite a bad game although we won, but i think we could have won easiler if our team mates were more cooperative and more team work.

RP girls lost to TP girls by 25, which i think is a nice trash. 2 main players in RP did not participate, 1 injured, and another one got national team de competition. I do not have any grudges against RP girls, but because Celine did well from what i see. Come on Celine you can beat NUS and dunk in.

My friend draft me into his DOTA team for inter school DOTA competition during open house. I did not know he had so high expectations for me and think highly of me. I think i should stop playing MMORPG games and play more bnet and zion.

I've been playing a lot of MMORPG games recently, Ragnarok Online and Maplestory. Shacks man. These need lots of commitment especially Maplestory, the higher the level you are, it can show the amount of time and money you put in.

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8:10 AM

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Went to Bras Basah print Qizhen's name card, but could not get it on that day because the vendor has lots of things to print, so have to get it another day. Finally i got the time to go Bugis , and indeed the place has changed alot. I thought of buying a ear phone there but do not have the brand that i wanted, so went back Woodlands to buy, and anyway i need to go back school.

Brought a Panasonic inner ear phones, but not very good after all. Sad. gtg. im so boring

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5:39 AM

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Kk has free admission tickets to MOS tomorrow night. Wanted to go but i've school on Thursday i'm afraid of hangover so rejeceted his offer.

Today was a bad day to start, seriously. My team of 4 went down to 2 people, and the 2 girls did not turn up. 1 overslept, another one don't know what happened. The thing that pisses me off the most is what i did last week. The 2 girls came early, but another guy and me was late. My bus came late and i reach class at 920, the other guy got dental appointment so he came at 1030. The girls told me that if we did not turn up, they will pon school, because we had to do filming. Today was the most important part, AND YET THEY DID NOT TURN UP! 1 overslept so decided not to come, another one don't even bother to inform anyone of us. What is this man! You girls expect us to do things that you all cant' even do.

I soloed all the way, with the guy doing some small task, and eventually i managed to complete do all the editing and complete the video, but i don't really like it. I feel that i could do better if i had more people, or instead, A BETTER TEAM! Darn team mates, you 2 have been blacklisted by me.

I think i need to start learning how to use more functions of Photoshop CS2, like digital painting, learning more special graphics, animation, more and more. There are so much things to explore but i'm like only like know a tip of an iceberg. I WAN TO LEARN MORE!!!!

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9:12 AM

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For the past weekends, i've been waking up as early as 830am to help out in the pool competition, and in the evening i went to work, which ended around 1045. I slept like 1am plus on Sat night and 12am plus on Sun night, which resulting in having dark circles around my eyes on Monday morning, which is today.

This morning, i'm reluntant to wake up actually, but when i went to brush my teeth, something shocked me. The dark rings around my eyes are so obvious and big, and anyone could see it from a distance. I decided to go back sleep because the condition was so bad that i cannot go out with it.

Dead, slept till 1 plus and went to school to transfer the photos i've taken for the past 3 days. My life seems so meaningless now. emo-ed

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6:51 AM

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right picture: pool skills 2-3 years ago
left picture : current pool skills

A little humour before i start my post today. Got top 6 for teams pool competition, but not lucky to be in top 4. I'm quite disappointed with my performance compared to last time. Simply, i've not played pool for almost 2 or 3 years already, and i only played like once in a thousand years. Even when i go to pool places, i will sit there and reject all the offers saying that i don't know how to play, but the thing is that i don't want to play.

This chance to join competition was totally random, because someone back out last min and because the other 2 are my friends, i decided to help them, but to me i think i really made them lose because of my poor form and performance. The guy was good and accurate, but lost concentration easily. And the girl, who was my classmate this semester called Elf, she really good. I'll seldom say girls are good, but she's perhaps the first lady that play so well but still, lost concentration easily. She is damn good i swear.

Sigh sigh, and for the first time in my life, i'm playing pool like so seriously. I used skills and steps that i used thousand years during mini competition. It helps me quite a lot and score quite many, but i still lost concentration because i seriously did not touch for so long. I'm so sad.

I feel that no matter what a person learn in his life especially in sports, he/she will have the skills. Even though he/she have not been playing for thousands of years, his/her skills will still be there. The main factor is the 'form'. I believe everyone has heard this word 'on form', and this differentiate a good player and a best player.

Good player have skills that is really good, during training or casual they can perform very well. But when it comes to competition, that is where the best players will shine. Best players are also good players, but they are able to handle the stress and concentration during competition, which i think need to participate in a lot of competition to be really good.

Suddenly urge to play pool, anyone? =D

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9:05 AM

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Today had pool competition at Maxwel there, forgotten the actual name there, but it's really ulu. However, the facilities there were very good, and the surroundings were rather vintage, and it's a bar somemore.

I have been taking pictures for the whole day, and tomorrow will be the teams. For some kind of reason, one of the members of a team can't make it for tomorrow's game, and the other 2 members are my friends, so decided to help them in playing tomorrow's game. It's so sudden.
So long since i've touch pool, which was like 2 - 3 years ago when i was still intensive pool-ing. I way too lousy compared to last time, whereby i can clear all the 7 balls in one shot, but like i can only get 3 balls in the most, and sometimes even none. My personnal cue is with MK, and i'm very lazy to get it tonight, so hope i can win with the house cue.

Work today was terrible, meeting 2 tables of really demanding and fussy customers. It's the first time that i kana these customers, and one really big shot uncle. The customers at the table were not such a big impact on me, because they screw some of my workmates, mk and i shouted some sarcastic words out in the restaurant.

The most unbearable was the big shot uncle who came and order take away. He even criti me for not smiling when he's not looking at me when i talk to him, and he kept looking and talking to my female supervisor. Ti ko pei. Whatever words that came out from his mouth were super sarcastic, and when he came back to collect his stuffs i decided to show him mine too, together for mk. Both of us shoot people they can't really talk back, can only diam diam and leave. lol. Don't mess with me man. Piss off

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9:31 AM

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some random thing to speak before i start posting....

Fiona Xie sat beside me and use my laptop!!!! omgosh!!! LOL. Today was the last season of Hey Gorgeous! and they came to RP. I had no school today but i have to go school for the pre-launch of re:vantage card, to take photographs as well as helping out. During the time between 3pm - 4pm, every students was back in their classroom studying, i sat at the Agora there playing PSP. Fiona Xia just came to us and ask "Can i use your laptop to check my mail?" I was totally dumbfounded. As i'm not using my laptop, i let her use, but too bad the connection at that time was very bad, and she wanted to view some photos and it load damn slow. LOL!!! Although i prefer Felicia Chin more than Fiona Xie, but still she's pretty, wahaha! I can feel that eyes are on me and another guy who were sitting beside her(she was sitting in the middle of me and another guy). What a lucky day!! wahaha

Ok now normal post.

Today was a very tiring day for me. I've repeated the same lines since 12pm till 230pm, and 4pm till 530pm to all the students. I feel damn dry and tired man, but nevertheless, since the Council is doing such a big thing to the students, i think it's worth it, and i sincerely hope that this initiative by us will success.

Fortunately, my muscles wasn't aching as badly as last time when i first jogged, and i think i'm going for it again tonight. For the next 2 days over the weekends, Student Council will be organising a pool competition at Tanjong Pagar from 10am to 4pm on both days. I seriously need lots of rest. I'm down to take photos for the event, because we decided not to ask help from Photo IG which is so sucky. Will be working at night as well, so extra tiring for me, dead.

with so much to say but no one to rant at...........................

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5:56 AM

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I have so much things to complain, to rant, to talk, but the friends that i usually talk to don't have time for me. Too bad, blame myself for having so little true friends.

This week had been a really tiring week for me, have 3 Council meetings out of 5 days, or should i say, i have meeting on all the 3 days that i'm studying. Super tired, and i don't think we've achieve anything. We have a boss that doesn't accept meeting request and don't want to turn up for our meetings. The moment he comes he start scolding us. What the hell man. When we were in discussion he don't want turn up, 1 time come see something wrong scold u, say Student Council like shit, not like a Council.

Today's meeting was super pissed off, the secratary sent a meeting request to our bid daddy AKA biss, but he doesn't even reply or what, and he went to play bowling because we have a bowling competition today. What the hell man. I remembered that first time he met us, he told us : "I want to have a monthly meeting with the EXCO". I had been already 6 months and he has only like 1 urgent meeting.

Student Council seems cool, and infact it is cool. But things go complicated when we have a lot of ideas, but the top management is very slow and inefficient, and doesn't think the way we think. It's like working in the government sector which was reflected in the film "Just follow law" by Jack Neo. It takes 1 or 2 working days to read proposal, and 2 to 3 days to approve it. There is no never ending top management. First level say ok, second level, and once third one say not ok, whole proposal rejected. Shit man. Some things are not whether can it be done or not, it's whether you dare to do it or not. (quoted from 'Just follow law')

Came back from night jogging, and i exercise for about 1 hour plus from 1130pm - 1245am. My day time is totally packed and i can only have time to jog at night. But night is not a bad choice, as least it's very cooling compared to the day, and the air is more cooler and clearer perhaps?

Finally took time to arrange my songs in my laptop, but after spending about 45 minutes i've managed to only arrange my techno songs, which is only like 800 plus mb. I did not know it's so time consuming and tiring to arrange songs and put into the playlist of my iTunes. tired tired.

With so much to say, with no listening ears.... zzzzzzzz

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11:45 AM

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I don't know why but i don't have the mood to study or even go school. Everyday is like so tired, and even though i have so much things to do, i don't even hav the mood to do.

It's good to see another one of my friend attached, because she had found her happiness, but i believe that i can't be as good as before, simply because i don't want any misunderstandings to arise. Guys have a higher level of jeaslousy compared to guys, and i can tell to al the girls and guys out there. Don't believe? Find a situation and you will feel it, i'm not going to say it.

Finally upgraded my PSP firmware and can play FF7 Crisis Core, wee!

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12:12 AM

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Today was the cricial match for CSC, against Taman Jurong, which is our first opponent for the season. We do not want to lose to the same team twice, but i guess that's fate. The match was really a bad one, because our main players totally cannot perform well, and during the last 3 minutes, they let the rest play, and that's me. Manage to secure 2 points from free throw, but not enough to win.

i think there are pros and cons for losing and out of the season. I'll have more time to train for my NAFRA, more time for working, and to play.

It's good to have a basketball buddy, and i'm happy that i have. Those who are the same secondary school as me, you all know this guy by the name of Zexin. We've been the same primary school till secondary, but i don't know him during primary. We've playing together in the same team for almost 5 years, secondary 2, 3 and 4 in 'B' division boys representing EVSS in the East Zone, youth cup in 2006 representing Tampines East and CSC representing Tampines North, and this year representing Tampines North in CSC. We've been like playing for so long, and i dare to say that we know each other and our team work on court is good. Mainly because we stay so near to each other, somemore we still stay in contact and go training together. It's good to have a buddy like that. Thank God.

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9:39 AM

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This morning was really bad, i waiting at Tampines interchange for my 969 for 45 mins! It's not that their is not enough drivers, but there are simply no 969 bus in the interchange! Although bus no.67 and no.969 are the same company, i don't understand why can't they change a few bus to 969. This 45 minutes is reall pekchek, and i tell you, the queue reached the small mac in the interchange. I don't know whether did it went past a not, but it's damn long.

My lesson starts at 830, and 810 i'm still in Tampines, and the bus came at 815. Alighted at Khatib with Sabrina and change to MRT because it's a faster route, but in the end reach school at 910. It's like what the hell man. waiting for 45 mins from 730 to 810. zzzz

Even when i took 168 home at night, the bus jammed on the expressway for 10-15 mins, due to the EMAS thing. I'm not sure what is it about, but it freaking blocked 3 lanes, leaving only 1 lane for vehicles to move. sian.

i'm super duper tired today, mainly because i did a lot of shooting today. luckily i fon't have school tomorrow. But i have a important match tomorrow evening. we better win this.

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10:22 AM

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Today having Sport and Exercise Nutrition module. It seems easy, as gotten from the name, it literally means what you need for nutrients when you do sports or exercise. But it becomes a killer when it transform into a science based knowledge. Today was on protein, seems easy, but it's a very complicated topic to cover.

Usually for my modules, the worksheet serves as a guideline on what we should look for, and for our presentation we will need to present out work base on the problem statment, but i do not understand why students will actually present the worksheet, which i think is a waste of time. Furthur more, it's like everyone is having the same answers, which makes it even more stupid. However, by presenting the worksheet, facilitator will know how much you, or as a team, have learnt. But too bad, i'm a media and design student, not a science student. *grins

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8:06 AM

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