i decided to take sometime to blog and rant at, because i simply have a lot to say.

Going back cell feels good. It's totally different from reading bible at home, because i get to read and reflect with all the members. Especially worship, it's better to worship and sing songs together. Seriously, everything is better when doing it together as a cell group. I remembered that last time during my busy FYP, i only manage to do all these things alone at home. It's so bored la, but nevertheless i'm back to church, and i'm still the same white.

School is boring, with 2 days of unofficial holiday, which is Wednesday and Friday. Usually on Wednesday, i will go alone to the gym, and after which i will do what i want. However, i will end up going back to school to for Student Council stuffs. I'm given some workload to do, and i deadline is 2nd week of next month. Tons of posters and things to be done, hope i can really cope. Napfa is the end of this month, yet i can only do a single pull up. I don't know why i still can't do more than 3, perhaps i don't understand and know how to do and use the correct muscles.

Im my busy schedule, i will maple whenever i have time. I feel that i'm partially addicted to it, again. I'm back to my old guild because the leader went to Taiwen for attachment and close down. With his return, he reopened the guild and invited me back, which makes me feel even tempt to stay in maple. Guild members are sort of in-game friends, so that you will not feel lonely when mapling.

Sheryl describe me as independent, because i always do things on my own. But in actual fact, i do not want to depend on others. I go train basketball on my own, went gym on my own, go night jogging on my own, and many more. If i were to go with someone, i will be dependent on him or her. Say if 1 night he or she last time decide not to go jog, does it mean that i will also not go? I don't want the "oh he/she not going, i also not going" kind of mindset.

Like what i've blogged last time whereby i chiong all the work alone, the guy with me have the intention to skip. Even when the 2 girls skipped, i told myself that i must finish the work no matter what. I don't know avoid problem, but no matter where you go, the problem is still there. People will have the impression of you that 'oh, you met a obstacle and pon school'. I don't like to make people think of me as this kind of person.

I've seen or heard somewhere about some quote which is something like this: "do not have people adding colours to your life. Instead, you should add colours to their life." It's something like you yourself make their life happening and memorable, not them making yours. This quote makes me a giving person. Indeed i've become one, but i did not receive any. Try so hard yet nothing in return. I hate it.

LIFE SUCKS!

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